AnAn is me.

Craziness

Friday, September 02, 2011 9:51 PM

I am but a crazy idiot.

If you read my tweets or facebook status from maybe 1 or 2 years ago, you will realise that i usually complain about others always not being able to understand what i say. though i can't say it isn't the same now. but perhaps i don't talk to those i used to, now.

I'm always on this journey to understanding people. everyone is different, but if you look closely, they can be pretty similar. it's like mathematics. you have this specific rule you have to memorise, but when you're being tested, the question may be asked in such a way that you have to derive that equation to suit what you have learnt and thereafter use the rule.

We are different in our ways, but always trying to be unique makes us similar.

but then i think i havent answered the craziness part of myself. hahaha

i think it's simply because i usually ~~don't think too much of what i do.~~ i mean, i think so much of what i should do that i simply ignore all of that. deciding to go with my heart and the other side of my brain.

~~sometimes,~~ or rather, all the time, thinking too much makes me stop. it makes me get nothing done. i decided to do away the thinking by telling that part of my brain to shutup.

and fyi, i have conflicts with my brain. to the point that i get angry with myself, for the things i did, am doing, have been doing, and will ever do. then again, i really hate myself. tsk.

whatever i say or do won't even make sense to myself. so i won't blame others for not being able to. it's always like this.

which reminds me, maybe i should one day write about my past. hahah although im like 19 this year only.

Weird, craziness, nonsense may just be words people use because the lack of understanding.