You'll know me when the time is right

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i hate the word "Hi."

i'm crazy

i'm silly

i'm a superstalker

who always thinks too much

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It's been so long, over a year I guess, since I last walked beside you like that for that long. Everything feels like it was just yesterday, except the feeling's stronger.

Not everything can be diluted by time

Feelings just get stronger, it's just a matter of whether positively, or negatively. Even if you try to ignore it, it's still in you and you know it. It's only a matter of recognizing it.

Those reading until now must be pretty much sighing away. But to stop myself, I have to keep those thoughts in my head, even when I see her. To do that, at the end I'll have to ignore her. But it wouldn't make sense of you telling me that I can't be rude and have to just smile, reply when those thoughts are right there in my head! I really tried and I can't do that. It makes me crazier than I already am. Really.

It's funny how shining knows why I do what I do but you don't. Probably because that's what I used to do for her too. But I think I probably didn't go to that much extent then. Or probably because you don't know if i'm going to go all emo and not do it.

i think I hesitate too much?

I think people wonder why I like her so much. And what progress do I make to improve our relationship. Yet sometimes, rushing doesn't get us anywhere.

I'm just a guy who's just there. Has been, will be.

It's true that true friends won't feel awkward when they're with each other. But for me, if we can't talk, we probably won't be good friends. It's not about the awkwardness. I can look at you forever, but you'll be the one feeling awkward, not me.

I know this isn't relevant but if i can't be good friends with people i can't talk with, what makes you think I'll date someone who won't talk to me?